Back to India

A few days back I decided to move back to India for now. I am not doing this out of my own will but I am being forced into it because of financial and visa related issues. It has become practically impossible to spend any more dollars in America and my current work permit expires in February, so realistically speaking I do not see my current future improving anytime soon in America.

Hence, the obvious move back home where jobs are still up for grabs and of course I would be living at home. I am just standing on the verge of taking the flight, I have already sold all my valuable excesses on Craigslist, invaluable ones were made to mate with the trash bags. But the most cherished of my assets (My Car) still remains with me and as soon as I find a buyer for it I will be flying back home in a span of couple of days.

It seems it was just yesterday when I had taken the Lufthansa flight to Syracuse from India, in reality it has been three years and four months since then. Time flies by faster than anything else and it seems even faster when you look back at the happier days standing in the muddle of this economic recession. In more ways than imaginable the recession has destroyed lives, mentally financially psychologically career confidence are just to name a few. A year back from now I was determined to face all this with all my might and come out successful, but today I stand defeated and worst of all I have accepted defeat. I have lost my mentality to fight against odds and I think for the rest of my life I would be preparing myself for such catastrophes that might befall me. 2009 has changed me more than the previous twenty four years of life, and now I just hope all this change is for good.

I am desperately waiting for just any one good thing to happen to me and trust me when I say, my standards of good have dropped drastically in the last one year.